Yesterday I think my pregnancy hormones really started taking over. I started crying at the most random and silly times, sometimes for no reason at all.
The most notable what while I was singing "Let it Go" in my car. This song is something I sing often, and it's one of the few I would feel comfortable singing in front of people by myself (I have notorious singing stage fright).
When nearing the last few months of my IF struggle before my BFP every time I sang Let it Go I would cry, but it was more of an angry cry. I was honestly trying to accept that maybe I would just be a proctor or foster parent for the rest of my life.
Yesterday when singing it it just hit me. I still am in the IF world. Trying for a second will likely bring on the same struggles down the road. But for now at least I can let go of the IF identity I have built up.
I can now accept that less than 200 days from today I will be joining the mommy world.
I found this picture online, and I may not have felt this way moth of the time, but I think now I may agree.
The most notable what while I was singing "Let it Go" in my car. This song is something I sing often, and it's one of the few I would feel comfortable singing in front of people by myself (I have notorious singing stage fright).
When nearing the last few months of my IF struggle before my BFP every time I sang Let it Go I would cry, but it was more of an angry cry. I was honestly trying to accept that maybe I would just be a proctor or foster parent for the rest of my life.
Yesterday when singing it it just hit me. I still am in the IF world. Trying for a second will likely bring on the same struggles down the road. But for now at least I can let go of the IF identity I have built up.
I can now accept that less than 200 days from today I will be joining the mommy world.
I found this picture online, and I may not have felt this way moth of the time, but I think now I may agree.
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